we represent the drun---, err, lollipop guild...

what a week (end). it sure felt like a week though... It was really a great weekend though, i got to keep my mind off of most of my personal issues for many hours a day for 3 or 4 days, excluding perhaps a few various times, but it was really nice and greatly appreciated. Oh my, I really do hope Suman and I do no get split up, i mean, neither of us can go to nationals, so what is the point of being on a team that would most likely go? I would like to direct suman again. actually, i would suman to direct me. i wonder if i would be able to be a good witness, i know it would stress me out about 400 times less, but i wouldn't want to make a fuss over wanting to be a witness and then sucking, you know? but it would be fun indeed.
anyhow, my team took 4th place, our other team took 5th place, an chervy took home an attorney award. she did do quite well, i certainly do envy her confidence, of this i am sure. It was quite a surprise, as tim had kep our record from us and we all thought we were doing quite poorly. ends up we were 6 and 2. a nice way to end the fake-team era. I have a special place in my heart for the fake-team era i think. i will certainly miss tim as my captain. why is it that i always end up loving my team so much? and clearly not in the mock sense, but just really finding each one to be an amazing human being. suman and i dont detatch well from our teams and captains i have decided. we often refer to team chance as if it still exists, and i feel radon will follow in chance's footsteps.
oh mock schmock. i hope there is not too much fighting at tomorrow's restack meeting. argh.
so many things on my mind... scary things on my mind... but not so scary but rather the opposite as well. i am really glad i got to spend so much time with nick and suman this weekend. even though they are indeed both cover-stealers.
i really need to improve on some of my habits that developed a bit too much this weekend. Perhaps i will have to look into some tranquilizers instead.
also, i have noooo idea what the hell is going on. and i am REALLY glad i get to go home this week. home is good. home is for thinking and getting to the bottom of life. or at least, this trip home is. yeah, right. 5 days and i will be perfectly content and happy again. right.
wow... a year ago? oh my.
jon is gone... we had lunch at the snail and went shopping on thursday afternoon before i left... and then he was picked up today. i dont know how long it will be before tht hits me, but probably quite some time. the only plus side? it really makes very little reason for bar night anymore, which will help work towards a goal i stated above. at least its not as bad as heroin. ha. oh my.
i went to meijer tonght. it was fun. i bought christmas cd's. and almost killed myself and another driver on severaloccasionas i feel asleep and went into his lane and then also several times alomst into the concrete wall on the right side of the interstate. i had to get stuff for cova.
BO JANGLES!
so i was thinking about the publicization of teh book i am working on. no. not really. but what kind of idiot says that word? phraseology? releasal? releasment? oh judges can be soooo awful.
also, if i suck as an attorney, as i cearly believe i do, why dont i just take the risk and try being a witness, i mean, i can't possibly suck any more than when i am a lawyer. hmmmm. interesting propsition, however, i do not wish to email tim. no reason in making the discussion of me anymore retarded than it already will be.
gurrr. this whole damn thing has been about mock. i guess it has been what i have been doing for like four days straight. makes sense. but still. stupid pirates.
who died and mae me president? also, why is that i can stand up and be assertive and loud and conduct house meetings and what not, but barely squeak my way through a cross? argh.

i am tired damnit.