i have run out of words...

there is so something so wrong with what just happened i feel. but it was my own choice i guess. my theatrical abilities are greater than i knew. i should be happy i get to gain an hour of every week back, however, it just seems wrong considering me, and considering i cried as soon as i got out of the office and all the way home, not to mention the last week as well, and then other things no one in the world even knows are going on.
i do not think i am perfectly well, but i just don't have anything left to say...