So, how's that creepy friend of yours?

what is my problem? i have been acting sooo girly lately. like, caring about guys and what not. well, first off i have been thinking about certain ones a lot, and then on top of that i have been sharing this and discussing it, and WHINING. and on top of everything, somethings that have been consuming me are very odd and notr right! un-characteristic! certain people that shouldn't be passing through my little mind, are! and there is emotion attached to the passing by... and i do not know where it is coming from. after much discussion amongst miss wang and the brown girl we have decided that it is not emotion to the person, but rather the idea. and i think i agree, but i am not one hundred percent sure. i mean, well, i don't know. and also, that's just one of the problems. there's also the whiny being girly thing. and caring about how somebody acts and what they say, and having expectations, which you know, only usually happens when i am grumpy and trying to be bitchy in a relationship. (oh yes, i admit it openly these days)
however my friend, there is a problem. contrary to popular belief around these parts, i am not in a relationship. so why am i being like this? RARG! why am i analyzing this? I really don't care. I am more content with my life than i have been in months, and I get to get the hell out of this town in a few weeks, what is there to complain about?
i could handle one of these problems or the other, but i am kind of confused how it is even possible for them both to be occuring at once.
so regionals are this weekend. nice change of subject. sort of. i hope team famine rocks the judges socks off, i know they will. i hope the best for everyone in fact. indeed. oh mock. i am looking forward to competing again next year. i think the decision i made was a very very good one, and i don't regret it a bit. plus i wouldnt have gotten to know the people on team famine, and that would have been more of a shame than anything.
oh mock... mock has caused two major shocks to my ol' heart today... crazy kids these mockers!!!!!!
Faculty roundtables were tonight. they rocked my socks. me and the other 3 visual arts majors rocked teh house. it was weird sitting with the humanties kids... english majors??? so foreign to me. but it made it so andrew was in my room, which was nice. i sat with art hostory profs becasue there were no COVA profs. we had a very nice time. we dicussed a lot of contemporary art, and rococo. I am not sure why rococo, i guess because Jill likes to say it is her favorite just to be odd, and apparently that is a popular thing to do amongst U of C students. both the profs were really cool. actually, we only had one, but because we are art peopel and crazy we randomly decided to combine our table, so tehre were liek 10 people sitting aound a table barely mad for five. yeah...
i think teh discussion above of my whole issues really helped me just detach myself from it all. i already feel like cold hearted ashley again. phew. i was on the verge of emotion and all that heartwarmy emotional crap.
i am feeling better helth wise. well, i was. i have taken a turn for the worse in teh last two hours. a really bad turn. ACK. i spent waaaayy too long in the SCC today... havent seen that place since last year around this time... (damn!)
oh yeah, did i mention my run in with the hot japanese girl? perhaps i ought not.

i just told candace i shouldnt publish this blog. but you know what? oh well! even though people will just over analyze it and make it say/mean things it doesn't, that is not my fault. it isn't!

AAAAHHH


maybe i need