some days are better than others

oh so we will call this day one. and i feel day one went well, minus ms. natarajan deserting me (to tell someone that someone she knew was pregnant) and leading to a situation that basically was just extremely painful on the whole. but at least i didnt just like burst into tears or something, i mean, that would have been awful, and well, just so awful. but you know, it is going to continue to happen, and i am going to get better with it, and not let it be so upsetting. and someday, hopefully sooner rather than later, it won't effect me at all. well, i actually can't say i hope that, it actually sounds quite awful and like the last thing i could hope for right now. but clearly as long asit is effecting me negatively and hurting me it would be better for it to have no effect on me at all than a bad one. so, like i said, forgetting is my only choice for now. unfortunately it's not my place to do anything else.
oh ho diddly dum.

in other news, the t-shirt guy called me again today. oh dear.

my mom just asked me if i was coming home for thanksgiving... am i wrong to find that so ridiculous? i mean, clearly.

have you ever listened to a song and thought holy shit i really hope someone else isn't listening to this song? oh dear.