i have been on boycott

on saturday night after watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind I wrote an extensive blog while we watched clueless about how much i loved Eternal Sunshine. I never published it and then closed my browser. so i have been upset. however, i founf this site which i find just hysterical, and maybe that is wrong of me.... i mean, its a nice concept and all, it just seems like such a joke.
http://www.survivinginfidelity.com

anyhow, i need to go get my painting groove on. today i am going to attempt to branch out into the unknown... cross your fingers for me...

we heart chris.

p.s. this was posted by Ashley AND Candace

*sigh*

what's wrong???

...i just don't get it.

always after the fact... why not during? its gonna be rough a life if i always keep this up.


today is just going to be one of those days i guess. maybe seeing our rental house prospect will be uplifting. or will it only remind me that i leave chicago in less than two weeks and i have yet to offically secure housing for june? or perhaps remind me that i have done a crappy job of looking for a job/internship for the summer to pay for my housing.

argh. i should just live in the reg all weekend and hide out. avoid all socialness.

wow, i havent said that in awhile, it was october 31 in fact. and oddly enough i think the same...

time to go paint.
*sigh*

oh clueless. what an amazing movie.

oh wow i have wasted time very well tonight. however, i am definitely incapable of having 5 IM conversaations at a time.

we watched clueless. and now we are watching princess diaries. what a life.

she is literally the polaroid of perfection.

well this makes me happy. i'm nott sure why.

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cake.

yuck. how is tomorrow only tuesday?

light bulbs??

i was doing this lab, and i wrote "light bulbs," and i had this quick memory of some joke revolving around light bulbs, but i cant remember it at all. maybe it was a dream.

oh dear. so this weekend... wasn't exactly u of chicago's mock trial team's proudest moment i suppose, but we did get two silver bids to nationals. the c team placed 4th and the a team placed 5th. famine (d) took the only ballot from one of the gold bid teams, which rocked, and they did wonderful all around, they played some of the better teams there. our shirts come tomorrow. i have tuesdays and thursdays free for the first time ever it seems like. even though it is only for a couple weeks i suppose... i am so glad i decided not to compete on team pestilence and took the role i did on team famine. i think i learned 6 times what i ever could have learned had i not. i am really looking forward to competing again next year. a lot.

less than 30 days until Pisa... i am so not close to ready. but it looks as if my housing for when i return might get figured out soon, as hopefully candcae and i, and ten 4 others will be renting this house on 55th ish. actually i suppose its 54th. actually, 54th place. i am excited. i have pictures, and we are going to see it sometime this week. i dont see any reason i wouldnt like it. i mean, it has three fireplaces. get serious people.

this weekend sorted out some misgivings and stupid thoughts that have been passing through my head lately. thank jesus.

also, i am six. or at least, i feel like it. you ever get butterflies when you see someone? or get really happy and can't stop smiling at the thought? well. it's a wonderful thing, even if i do feel six. that is all.

i spent 6 hours writing an astrophysics lab report. that is becaus ei have gotten two Ds on my midterms, and nothing above a B on anything else. I still didnt need to spend that much time on it. I haven't done something so over-acheiverish since middle school. oh hillside.

is time for bed.

i have done so much quality wasting of time tonight...

so i discovered the wonderful world of all the videos i have taken with my digital camera... most of them accidents, clearly. The most common video was about three seconds long with me going something along the lines of "oh shit! darn it, it's on movie." But even those capture good moments, as often they turned from "oh shits" into, "oh well, might as well take some video." There was a couple of Joe... and room 1224... those were really awesome. There was one "oh shit" video from my mom on my birthday in St Joe, another from Candace later that night. Both capture more than the "oh shit" moment... There's a couple from nationals before 4th round, all entertaining as well. One of zebras at the zoo last spring, also nice. A couple from procrastinating in Hutch... candace, chris, and i wishing my mother happy mother's day (candace likes her hair in that one), a couple "oh shits," etc. Spring Break video of course... most of whch is in the car so it is entirely inaudible. oh well, i can still see my dear hott lindsey. Oh man... that was really nostalgic... and somewhat painful.
oh well, regionals this weekend! Let's hope my mock dream from last night comes true! (Except for that whole plotting to kill team famine aspect of it...)
I got a 60 on my last astrophysics midterm. a 68 before that. That is two D's. That is bad, especially since i know the material, i just am very careless/i don't care at all. My grade on my final needs to amazing. especially since my lab ta is awesome but the bitchiest grader ever. at least i have the hott girl as my lab partner. i finally got to find out her name now. I shall not post it. that would be creepy. for her, that is.
i have a reaidng quiz to do tomorrow. for history. i need to do the readings first. uh oh... perhaps i shoudl go to bed? i don't really feel like it. oh well. i certainly need to get offline.

Things I hate about my Flatmate: February 2005

Things I hate about my Flatmate: February 2005

this is the greatest site ever. some of these are priceless. i heart wasting time.

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please click the link. and laugh, heartily.

i heart miss wang. i just died laughing at her blog. really, i died.

i am ridiculous

i heart the asian and the albino.
a lot.

So, how's that creepy friend of yours?

what is my problem? i have been acting sooo girly lately. like, caring about guys and what not. well, first off i have been thinking about certain ones a lot, and then on top of that i have been sharing this and discussing it, and WHINING. and on top of everything, somethings that have been consuming me are very odd and notr right! un-characteristic! certain people that shouldn't be passing through my little mind, are! and there is emotion attached to the passing by... and i do not know where it is coming from. after much discussion amongst miss wang and the brown girl we have decided that it is not emotion to the person, but rather the idea. and i think i agree, but i am not one hundred percent sure. i mean, well, i don't know. and also, that's just one of the problems. there's also the whiny being girly thing. and caring about how somebody acts and what they say, and having expectations, which you know, only usually happens when i am grumpy and trying to be bitchy in a relationship. (oh yes, i admit it openly these days)
however my friend, there is a problem. contrary to popular belief around these parts, i am not in a relationship. so why am i being like this? RARG! why am i analyzing this? I really don't care. I am more content with my life than i have been in months, and I get to get the hell out of this town in a few weeks, what is there to complain about?
i could handle one of these problems or the other, but i am kind of confused how it is even possible for them both to be occuring at once.
so regionals are this weekend. nice change of subject. sort of. i hope team famine rocks the judges socks off, i know they will. i hope the best for everyone in fact. indeed. oh mock. i am looking forward to competing again next year. i think the decision i made was a very very good one, and i don't regret it a bit. plus i wouldnt have gotten to know the people on team famine, and that would have been more of a shame than anything.
oh mock... mock has caused two major shocks to my ol' heart today... crazy kids these mockers!!!!!!
Faculty roundtables were tonight. they rocked my socks. me and the other 3 visual arts majors rocked teh house. it was weird sitting with the humanties kids... english majors??? so foreign to me. but it made it so andrew was in my room, which was nice. i sat with art hostory profs becasue there were no COVA profs. we had a very nice time. we dicussed a lot of contemporary art, and rococo. I am not sure why rococo, i guess because Jill likes to say it is her favorite just to be odd, and apparently that is a popular thing to do amongst U of C students. both the profs were really cool. actually, we only had one, but because we are art peopel and crazy we randomly decided to combine our table, so tehre were liek 10 people sitting aound a table barely mad for five. yeah...
i think teh discussion above of my whole issues really helped me just detach myself from it all. i already feel like cold hearted ashley again. phew. i was on the verge of emotion and all that heartwarmy emotional crap.
i am feeling better helth wise. well, i was. i have taken a turn for the worse in teh last two hours. a really bad turn. ACK. i spent waaaayy too long in the SCC today... havent seen that place since last year around this time... (damn!)
oh yeah, did i mention my run in with the hot japanese girl? perhaps i ought not.

i just told candace i shouldnt publish this blog. but you know what? oh well! even though people will just over analyze it and make it say/mean things it doesn't, that is not my fault. it isn't!

AAAAHHH


maybe i need

oh joyful mornings.

what i woke up to this morning:

mayrain1 (2:59:15 AM): Yet, few studies have investigated differences in affect between sexually dysfunctional and functional men or changes in dysfunctional men resulting from successful treatment. We compared men having premature ejaculation (PE) with sexually functional counterparts on positive and negative affects, and examined changes in their affective response to pharmacotherapeutic treatment with clomipramine, an ejaculation-retarding agent.
mayrain1 (2:59:22 AM): i was mildly amused


and she was only in mock for a few weeks...

scratch that.

i am very annoyed in fact.

roar and dishonor on you and your whole family.

argh. :(

i wish i could stop talking like a martian

oh being seing sick is the worst. and i am the biggest baby when it come sto being sick. and i know it. i really haven't been sick since last year around this time. i remeber i felt just about as crappy at regionals last year as i do right now. argh. my roommates do a lovely job of babying me however.
oh boy... so today is valentines' day. a day i have never been too fond of. this year it is not so bad however. as i am single. i know, i am backwards. but i really hate valentines' day when there is the pressure of spending it with someone. valentines's day junior year was the worst! for some retarded reason i decided to make an extravgant dinner. i dont remember everything, but definitely some amazing pesto and white chocolate mousse with raspberry sauce... all from scratch. i don't even vaguely recall valentines day senior year. that is kind of sad. i just really can;t stand the day on the whole. i wish i knew why. i guess i hate/fear holidays in general when not single... which really is a rarity for me these days. and by these days i mean for over three years now. i need to get over that fear. or just stay single :) that works better for me.
ho hum.
oh dear... i have been so odd lately. what is wrong with me? besides the whole high fever and snot contamination that is. hmph.
i wonder how my history paper is going to treat me. hopefully its a B. i would really be happy with a B.
i wish i could just go to Italy and be done with it all.
actually i wish my mommy was here to take care of me.



ARGH!!! i have to go to crerar tonight :(

sometimes you just need to have a headband party during a blizzard.

i love my goldfish. and the bulls. and myself.

a good sign

its a good sign that i didnt have that many random thoughts after all... my paper was done by six and was the first on ein the door at ratner! now a yummy pierce breakfast. mmmm. haha

why?

why do i even try when I know i am just going to get a low B or C? argh... page 3 of total shit and counting...

my first of many random thoughts tonight

does anyone else get serious satisfaction out of watching the voluem of the liquid in their nalgene bottle decrease numerically? i do.

an entertaining day and night. ah. tomorrow holds much less fun. lots of running around town and getting gesso on me.
yay.

oh donna lewis, you and your singing.

I WOULD ENJOY ALWAYS TYPING IN CAPS. BUT I DON'T THINK OTHERS WOULD. SO PERHAPS I WILL stop.

I would really like to say intelligent things on my blog, but i really prefer to just say what comes to mind. I mean, I could theme my blog, but I feel like the theme of "me" is good enough for now. I really wish i had my blogs from before i got to school this year, the ones that were on my brother's domain at home. cause i didn't keep a real journal at all during that time. i mean, it was only from about the middle of july to the middle of september, so two months, but i think its safe to say that they were not exactly uneventful months, lacking of emotion. Oh well, right?

what an odd weekend. i am not really sure what to make of it, but i do know that i think i am very lost. It seems like everyday that passes makes Italy seem more and more inviting and enticing. I think it is going to be so good for me, to think i was once sad about having to leave for so long! It will be amazing... Oh but I will of course get homesick, I get hoemsick in Chicago and i am two hours or a phone call away. Speaking of being abroad, i miss having Danny around. His roommates took a package of his bread stuff and put it on the wall as a memorial while he is gone. I cannot believe i will be abandoning my house! I'll make executive decisions abroad. :) Run house meetings with a video phone... It is sad to think I will be moving out of housing... that this is my last quarter in housing... and its half over! HOW ON EARTH is this quarter half over? Where have i been? oh geez...

for some reason i am finding these really horrible superbowl commercials really entertaining. Mayeb it stems from teh fact that as long as i am finding the superbowl entertaining it is a valid excuse to not be doing work.

Oh what am i going to do this summer? I would love to get my internship at the art institute, but god only knows if that will happen... and i have to imagine it's doubtful. Who wants a uchicago art student when you could have art students from like, art schools? hmph. what posessed me to think i wanted to make money and get a real job in high school? i could be studying at the art institute. oh, but think of all the people i would not have met and the experiences i would not have had... not to mention gaining the capability to be the most pretentious bitch on earth.

oh dear, a week from tomorrow is valentine's day! i have all my valentine's supplies, i just need to get to making and decorating them... they are going to be just fabulous. i don't know what makes me so averse to valentines day some years and not others. I mean, clearly it is a stupid day, but i think in last several years i could have avoided pissing a couple people off by just pretending to get into and be girly about it. but no. eh, that's me. difficult and stubborn as hell. i am sorry.

amber rock... rich and smooth... stupid commercial, i didnt even give pity laughs on that one. plus i don't agree with it. i think someone being just one or the other is just fine, well, i would prefer the person to be smooth and poor than rich and awkward. but who's to say that the poor and awkward don't deserve a chance as well? cause they do.
I HATE FOX SPORTSCASTING.

i am going to shutup. and do work. and damn it i still didnt say anything or comment on anything political or intellectual. i'll work on something...

'cause blue eyes, I just wanna be the one

i super heart garden state.
i haven't laughed this hard in quite sometime.

my wonderful Kasey, who has gone to doggy heaven i found out this week... :(

MY side of the lake...

i thought it was time fo one of my random picture postings. this is maija and i on christmas eve this year...

never a dull moment.

you'll have to ask.

i am going to sleep for awhile. very very tired am i.

i don't care who you are... where you're from...

as long as you love me.

oh man, i am going home for the weekend. my train leaves tomorrow at three. i have never ridden a train. how exciting!

today is february 1. last year on this day i spent my whole day in the reg doing my jap civ midterm. yuck. i wish i would realize as i was doing things how little importantce they have.

also
yes.

as long as i am just lying here

so i feel like crap. i have some sort of stomach flu. i watched the lion king earlier. it rocked. now candace and i are watching mulan. it also rocks. i am tired though, i shoudl sleep, i have a team dinner outing this evening however. We are meeting at teh reynolds club and walking to pizza capri. we being team famine. yes, i realize we are kind of being a bit ironic by having a team famine dinner together, but its ok to like food. oh pizza capri. the first restaurant i ever ate at in hyde park. my family was camping in south bend so joey and i came to visit for the day... i used the bathroom in the old gsb. then we took pictures in teh quad and of shoreland and in the park. then we walked to pizza capri and had a scrumptious dinner. it was a really nice day. it was also where chris and i went on our second date. mmm, i had really good pesto that night. that was also a really nice day. mmmm food, i haven't exactly kept much of that down today. i have had lots of 7up though, this new fruit juice 7up, it rocks. hopefully i will feel liek eating by teh time 6 rolls around so i dont just have to sit and watch everyone else eat.
margh. i feel like it is five hundred degrees in this room, and we have all teh windows open with a fan blowing the cold air in. roar to my body.
i need to close my eyes now.

i am officially a nut. i am.